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Updated: Apr 19, 2021

Everything starts with a step. CT scans were steps toward answers. Biopsy was step to the answer. To say I'm not afraid of the next steps would be a lie. My biggest fear is surgery.

I know, faith leaves no room for fear, but let's be real - my last surgery was rough, stopped breathing, difficult to intubate, damaged my vocal chords. This does not leave me excited for another one.

Secondly, this is different. Could change my life. Might become diabetic - I know, we can live with that, but it is a change.

Thirdly, I could lose my spleen. Again, you can live without it, my beloved brother-in-law does, but it is a life change.

I made the appointment to meet with a surgical oncologist who specializes in pancreatectomies. I hung up the phone and cried. I cannot bury my head and hope this goes away. I have to deal with this and all these at a time. Appointment set, April 21. Deep breaths, this sucks.

BUT, I got this. I CAN and WILL get through this. God isn't finished with me yet.

Thanks for joining me on this new adventure.



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I am praising God for the technology and knowledge he provides. Imagine not having CT scans or biopsies available. Imagine not knowing what needs to be done until it is too late to do anything. I am grateful for his many mercies, especially in times like this. You are loved. We, your family and friends, will rally around you. You have insurance. The doctors caught it early. Experts are available to perform the surgery. And God is bigger than it all. He who knit you together in your mother’s womb is able to do immeasurably more than all you ask or imagine. 💕

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